My kids as adults. My kids are full grown adults! Are they happy? I hope so. I think they are happy. They smile a lot. They make jokes. Depression, despair and gloom don’t seem to be in their basic make-up or vocabulary. I tend to think they have been happy all their lives. Never have I encountered either one of them having problems at school with bullies, school work, social dilemmas, ect. I think I am happy with the way they “turned out” as adults. No, I am definitely happy. I like to think that I had a thing or two to do with that outcome. Even just a little bit.
Sure, Erin is in the most inhospitable, dangerous place on earth…but she is thriving…actually enjoying her deployment in Afghanistan…getting all sorts of combat hours and life-long character-building military experiences. God-willing, she will come back in a few months and prepare for her next deployment with her next aircraft and look forward to it. In the meantime, I hold my breath and see where she will go next.
Sure, Moe has no real job yet. She has graduated with a degree in which she may not use, but at least she has Starbucks for now. She’s meeting people, going places, travels more than I did when I was her age. She is still young. She looks forward to living on her own and setting up her first apartment. But for now, she is content to live with us. She knows she has a good thing. Saudi is in her future for a bit and she has her big European adventure coming up. Her real life is just beginning.
All is good. We are content. We may not be the most functional of families. We have plenty of dysfunction, in fact, but I think that makes us us. I am so happy to see them happy, healthy, and well-adjusted. I want them to take every advantage of this “perfect” time in their lives without any major problems and remember it well. Life brings about lots of potholes in which we have encountered very few. REAL life begins soon. They will get older, have relationships, get married (or not), have families of their own (or not), have real life job situations, money issues and everything that goes along with that. All that is in their future like it is/was in our lives at times. But for now, I am glad they have the life they are living.
The caption, you ask…”What’s the point?”
Seriously, although I already bought an abaya which I will have to wear everywhere outside of our expat compound, if I had to wear the burkha such as these ladies have to, I would never go out.
My abaya is actually kinda cute in a Hogwarts professor kind of way! Hoodie and everything.

I pick this stuff up. Seriously, I stop, bend over, examine every piece and then determine if it’s worthy enough to take valuable space in my pocket. It could be a piece of old sea-worn pottery. It could be a perfect piece of knotty driftwood with just the perfect purpose in mind. My pockets usually end up having seashells and sea glass in it as well. What do I do with it? Well. I take it home, I sort them out, I make the final cuts and then place the pieces in the appropriate bins in my garage. My reject pile is then thrown in the forest at the back of our house.
My beach treasure collection is ever growing and ever evolving. I started out pocketing green, peach, black only, white only, and marbleized rocks two years ago. I put handfuls of them in glass jars (always sorted according to color…always). They were pretty. Looking at them now, they remind of how far we’ve (I’ve) come in terms of enjoying the New England coast. Then I started seeing all sorts of beautiful pastel colored sea glass on the beach. Of course I began to stuff those in my pockets as well. Driftwood was a late comer, but that doesn’t mean I have the least of that. Just because of driftwood’s size, it looks like I have the most of that stuff.

But what really is treasure? How could one person say that these little pieces of found sea worn junk is not treasure, but just trash. Finn finds “treasures” all the time. Look at how proudly she carries her treasure. She struts it over to me to have a look. I always approve. I always am very excited for her when she finds something worthy of burying. I am always happy she explores the coast with me. Yes, most of her finds end up in her mouth and sometimes in her stomach. Not for me to say what one can do with their treasure. As two beachcombers, we can appreciate each others finds. Her finds usually don’t make it home.

There is no telling what you can find on the beach. And right at the perfect moment, there it is…a red heart. A little faded, a little beat up, not even sure what it’s function was in its heyday, but perfect in every way. Did it make it home? Nope, this was too perfect to take. I want someone else to happen upon this as I did. Wouldn’t that be perfect if it was on February 14th!?
Sh*t Chicagoans Say
So funny! Thanks for sharing, man I miss it!
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I decided to start using the driftwood I have been collecting for two 1/2 years and make stuff. Now that I have my drill press these boats are a cinch.

I decorated it up using coastal inspired stencils and stenciled numbers on them defining what date the lucky recipient’s birthday is. I also ordered off of Etsy, these tiny anchor and life ring charms (10 for $2.00) to kick it up a notch.These are birthday presents for three of my friends at work. Hope they like them. I must get to the fabric store and get more grommets and striped fabric. Next on the list of things to make from driftwood: fish and/or whale mobiles.

4:15am this Christmas morning; Erin calls us. Our first contact with Erin outside of a quick email last week. She’s in Afghanistan and doing well. Just sitting on the flight line watching the planes take off. Her turn is tomorrow, she said. Going up for the first time in the mountains near Bagram. Should be a “non-event”. No other news. The Crocs she brought are a god-send. Thank God she heard about bringing them before she got there because everyone wears them when walking down the rocky street to go to the bathroom. She lives in Hut #4 made of plywood, some nails, and a little bit of duct tape for good measure. It gets beastly cold out at night, thank God the inhabitant of this hut before her left some blankets. It’s pretty much just a normal Sunday for all of them except for a quick passing out of Santa hats to everyone at roll call. Long gone are the days of the Bob Hope specials where everyone was treated to a real Christmas special.

Her goodbye was hard. Saying goodbye to your big sister 10 days before Christmas was a test in strength for Moe. Erin said don’t worry, the Air Force has trained them well and she is prepared for anything. She didn’t want tears. She is doing exactly what she wanted to do…deploy early in her career while there still was a war. Imagine that, a 24 year old girl just shy of 5’4” wanting to do this thing. She was up for the adventure. Up for the challenge. Up for the hardship. I wonder if people realize who really is out there on the front lines. Girls such as my daughter.

Erin was educated with a BS in Aeronautical Engineering at the Air Force Academy (Class of ‘09), had her Survival, Evasion, Resistance, and Escape (SERE) training in the deep woods of Washington State, had her Undergraduate Pilot Training at Vance AFB, advanced training at Beale AFB in California, now Afghanistan for the BIG test. Not everyone, she says, gets the opportunity to prove what stuff their made of. She thinks she is lucky to do this before the war ends…while there still is a war. Good luck, my little one, this Christmas Day, I love you! I hope these wing halves will never be reunited as long as I’m alive.
Volunteering as a “period” representative at an historical location has its pros and cons.
Pros: You can wear an awesome period costume that you painstakingly make yourself to the exact specifications of early American history.
You can meet all kinds of people with all kinds of wonderful questions like; “Where did you get your milk from?” or “Did they use sewing machines back then?”.
You can get lost in the period and speak only as if it is really only 1774 and you have no knowledge of the outside world. Pretty hard to do if you think about it, but could be a fun exercise.
Cons: You have to wear an itchy, wool, heavy, poor fitting costume that you had to make yourself and had to be exact or the park service would not allow you to wear it.
You get a lot of stupid questions from people that have no idea what came first: electricity or the American Revolution.
You have to be so thorough in your language and mannerisms as a volunteer period representative, that wearing your Casio chronograph would get you banned from the Preservation Society.
Although these period players are teachers, professors, housewives, plumbers, and the like, they all have an interest and expert knowledge in one thing…American History in one particular time period. And that is pretty cool in my book.
Simple pleasure; watching Moe and Finn enjoy a pre-dusk/after work walk on the beach at Rome Point. We’re the only ones around, the Jamestown Bridge looms on the horizon in the distance, and the temperature is a breezy, balmy 79 degrees. I wonder what Moe is thinking as she treads on the slipper shells underfoot; she starts her last semester of undergrad life at URI, her resume is ready, and her future is decidedly undecided. Moments like this are never taken for granted by me. I know we are lucky to have places like this to relax. I know I am lucky…for now…to have Moe with me tonight.
I found Flipper today. All dead and bloated and in my way while walking the three mile trek to Charlestown. Eww. Gross, but sad. Sad…but oh so gross. I will spare you the rest of the body…unless, of course, you really want to see it……See, taking a stroll on the beach is not always just sand and seagulls!
So I went part time a few weeks ago out of sheer desperation and it feels wonderful! For now! Haven’t gotten my first part time pay check yet so I am sure that will be changing my state of nirvana right away. But heck…I needed a break. I needed some ME time for once, I admit it. I want, just for once in my life, to be responsible for not quite so much. I want to work in an environment that is FUN, interesting, satisfying, and one that makes a difference. What is that job, you ask? If I knew I would already be pursuing it. I do know this: it is NOT in retail. Many say your situation is what you make of it. I have tried to make my “situation” pleasant, fun, satisfying, and interesting. It gets exhausting if I’m the only one trying save for a few of my great and fabulous friends with the same mind set and priorities. Unfortunately, those friends are not the ones who have the most influence at work to make a difference. I am lucky…I have those friends, and a husband that can and will support me for whatever crazy thing I do next. Even if we have to eat ramen noodles for a while…well, maybe not, he hates ramen noodles. (I’ll think of something cheap to eat). But for the time being, I am guiltily happy working three days a week and exploring for the rest of the week. I am trying to relish these days because I am not sure how long this will last. For now.
love ourselves, no matter our size. that’s what we’re told. that’s what they say; right from the start. it’s not what’s on the outside, it’s what’s on the inside that counts. looks will fade, it’s the personality that counts.
those are the things we’re told growing up. and those are the things…